I Want To Be His Perfect Girl
“She’s walking around like the girl of your dreams with her Angelina lips, double zero jeans…She’s just so beautiful. I’m just an average girl”
These lyrics are from the song “Average Girl” by Emily Osment. I purchased this song off of iTunes for my sister, and thought I’d take a listen to it, and can I just say, these words really struck a chord with me.
I have never been a girl who was comfortable with the way she looks. I have been overweight my entire life, and for some reason (I blame the media) I always associated being overweight with being ugly. But when I saw other overweight people, I never thought they were ugly, it was only me. I was the only ugly one.
I am the girl who finds beauty in everything, in everyone. But I never saw the beauty in myself.
That is, until I met a boy who constantly tells me how beautiful I am. And for some reason, when he tells me I’m beautiful, I believe him. I look in the mirror, and I like what I see for the first time in my life. I no longer wear makeup, because I now know that I really don’t need it. Because I am beautiful.
I’m not gonna lie and say I don’t have my bad days. Like the lyrics say, I really do see myself as an average girl. I know that there are far more beautiful girls than I am, and I worry that maybe I’m not beautiful enough, smart enough, funny enough, kind enough, for him. I worry that that girl, the one with Angelina lips and double zero jeans, will cross his path, and take him. And as much as I hate to think about it, I still worry that she’s coming, and I’m going to lose him.
Maybe that beautiful girl will come along with her angelina lips and double zero jeans and she will be a twit. Where as you, infact, are not. Just don’t be a twit, and you’ll be fine.
Bliss Carman
May 23, 2010
Aww, thank you.
You always post the kindest comments.
caitlynchurchwo
May 23, 2010
I have that feelings sometimes. I know I’m not beautiful, but I still know I wouldn’t want to look like anyone else. I also noticed that confidence and beauty start to become the same thing. If you have no confidence in yourself you see yourself as ugly, but when you do have confidence that most beautiful person appears. I try to have confidence in myself, and you should definitely, too. Some of the most ugly people are the most attractive people because of their confidence. You are beautiful, and be sure that you know it.
ninjajane
May 23, 2010
Thanks Jane. Actually, we (he and I) had this conversation.
I do see myself as beautiful. And I am confident in ways that I have never been before.
caitlynchurchwo
May 24, 2010
I am looking for the perfect girl lol if there is such a thing. Other Wholesale
Other Wholesale
May 24, 2010
I believe that there is a perfect person for everyone, we just have to find them, to recognize them as that perfect person. No worries, you’ll find her.
You never know, maybe you’ve already found her, you just don’t know it yet.
caitlynchurchwo
May 24, 2010